April 2022

I realise more and more that I want to feel the pain of the world.
to turn towards the pain,
to open my eyes to the cruelty, the brutality, the suffering, the fear ….
and feel it in my Heart.

Of course this does set off all kinds of reactions;
from parts of myself that feel responsible, or hopeless,
from parts that are furious, that seek someone to blame
in an attempt to push the pain away and find a scapegoat instead.

But when I invite the pain into my Heart,
when the protections, the armouring inside myself,
are pierced by the eyes of a refugee child, or a story of callousness or courage
love happens…

spontaneously

I start to feel supported;
the frantic, fearful thoughts begin to calm down;
fresh perspectives open up.
I become available again
to life, to this moment, to relationship.
Body … supporting Heart … supporting mind …
all intrinsically part of the web of life,
already here, already connected,
and knowing full well that it is the refugees and villains
in myself that need to be met,
welcomed, given a seat at the table
and no longer allowed to run wild in my life and my community.

Colin